About me - the real HP

First of all I am just realizing now that these English sites will not be the same as the Hungarian ones! I mean, I do make my best to translate them accurately, though certainly not word-by-word, but by content. This is the same with my story. the story of the real HP.

Those funny Hungarians

 

    When I write HP, I don't mean the worldwide IT company. Neither have I anything to do with the current Potter hype. It is simply about the real HP: me. It stands for Peter Halasz in Hungarian (where the family name stands first and then comes the first name). The very same abbreviation has further meanings in my language like: strong homemade (fruit) brandy - pálinka, or excuse my French: stupid bitch. I do have many good moments with the first one, however - and not regrettably - I am not an expert on the second... Well, I guess this is fair enough example of the Hungarian humour - which in my life always played an important role.

    If you have a sound knowledge of the language, you can check the Hungarian version where I am telling some stories about my (nick)names. This is something I am not going to do here for a) my lack of language skills and b) the uncertainty on English-language humour. Sorry folks.

 

The Fisher King - IMHO

 

    I liked the movie with Robin Williams very much. Also I was recently reading a book about men, where they analized the holy grail scenario a bit as well as the legend of the Fisher King. That too sounded interesting to me... In fact there are many things that I am interested in. For example books. Books in general but if you want categories, I can specify a few (w/o a full list):

  • sharks, marine animals
  • men, male-psyche,
  • coaching, personal-development
  • labyrinth, meditation

    This tells you a bit about my (current) interests. In addition to this I do like music and movies. I guess this list would be way too long even to start, so let's skip this for now. But what makes the Fisher King then? I don't know. I still feel like a king when I have good days. And on others, like a fool. To be honest, there isn't much difference between the two and sometimes the Fool is the real king if you ask me... I have recently heard a speech from AppleMan, Steve Jobs, where he quoted someone else: "Stay hungry, stay foolish." I liked that sentence a lot. It reminds me of me... being hungry most of the time and foolish in one aspect or another.

 

The serious stuff

 

    Ok, being a 34-year-old man, a husband, a father of 3, a director of a big corporation to name a few of my current roles, I guess it is time for me to say some serious words here. Ok, here you go: sometimes I am seriously scared. Scared of the future: what it is going to bring to my children? Scared of our leaders: what if they don't hear our voices? Scared of the status of the environment: what if those guys are right and Mother Earth is about to die?

    But most of all: scared of my own weakness. I remember that from my early years I wanted to be SOMEONE. I come from an ordinary, simple family - which in Hungarian terms mean that I have gone through some trauma, but I was amongst the luckier ones: it was "only" the divorce of my parents. And it did give me a strong lesson, no problem with that... But getting back to the ordinary part, I wanted to be someone extraordinary. I wanted to stand out from the grey mob, whatever it took. Teachers told my parents that I was talented in school. In general. What they didn't tell my parents was that I was lazy too. Or better put it this way: opportunistic. This resulted that I was good but not extraordinary.

    During my highschool years my trips began and for some years I was really hesitant whether it is easier to make my way deep down in order to become extraordinary through that. Later on I had to realize that that way isn't that easy either... To cut the story short, it took me ages to come to a point where I have realized that being an ordinary man takes guts. In today's fast-paced world, it really does. Not to climb up too high, not to stumble down very deep but to live your life in freedom - especially when the life you are supposed to live looks like one where the word freedom has seemingly very little room left. Being ordinary is what gives you the EXTRA. And there you are: an extraordinary man. That's what I mean when I try to live my every days as a father, to love as a husband, to do my job as a manager, make my life-work as a teacher/facilitator and play as a freediver or labyrinth-maker, or whatever it takes to have fun. And still be able to juggle the 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.

 

I did it my way

 

    Like Frankie said - even if someone considers me to be way too young to quote such an exquisite singer as Sinatra. My age is not something I have achieved. The years are given to us by God/Spirit - you name it. Whatever we achieve during those years is up to us - even though there is a "touch of the Heavens" in that too, as I see it. I consider myself to be far older than my true age and much younger in heart - and I just I hope this is clear to my beloved ones too.

Zooooom     I think this could be a never-ending story, so I am ending it now with a list of keywords that are relevant (something I have started above with the book categories). I do hope you enjoy my site and come back from time to time to check where my path has been taken me (and if my English-language humour got any better)! Here are the buzzwords, or the milestones that have been leading my conscious way lately. It is all about learning and melting everything, so that when you wake up in the morning, you see a coherent person looking back at you from the mirror.

  • Mindfulness-Based Stress Reduction
  • Non-Violent Communication
  • Vipassana Meditation
  • Qui-Gong
  • (Life-) Coaching
  • Labyrinths
  • Soul in Education
  • Spiritual Facilitation
  • People, people, people
    These are the ones that have affected me lately (on my spiritual path) and of course the list is to be continued. And so is my story: to be continued... Thank you! In my mother-tongue: Köszönöm!